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Costume Time

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 06:17:33 GMT

I visited Toby on Monday and Tuesday and we got to talking about Halloween day and thought it would be nice to dress up. I dont think he has dressed up for halloween since being a kid so he is really into the idea. He actually wants to do a couple costume, which I thought was a horrible idea at first. Then we got our mind gears moving and came up with an Idea. He is going to be a Dark/Gothic version of the Mad Hatter and I will be either Alice or the Rabbit. It seems like a great idea to me just because that style is right up my alley. He said he would provide for materials he just wants me to do it. I have full creative control, which I like. I mean Im sure I can work in his ideas in there. Now Im doing horrible sketches that only i can understand. Im not so amazing at sketching but I know what my mind is thinking. Now Im not to sure if Alice should be the traditional blue or the color scheme should change to red black and white. I'm exited for halloween now. The only costume I have ever thrown on is a Rillakuma kigurumi and that wasnt much of a costume at all. So if anyone has any ideas throw them at me.

Sparx and vodka shots x.x

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 05:49:52 GMT

I havent posted in a very long time. Everytime Im almost done with a post my laptop decides to die. So whatever fuck you computer. Went out this past saturday to the Banham (however its spelled) Zari and I were bored so just randomly decided to go out. She did dark decora and I went baglady too. I got to try out my new fish umbrella which is always cool! Zari made me try a Sparx beer energy drink, it was okay but it does the trick. I kept getting cheap drinks at the club. It was awesome! I always have fun at the Banham. We also took a little tour of downtown and used a bathroom at the Hilton. "It was hot" Maybe its not such a good idea being drunk downtown. Yeah right! FUN!

I saw The Hangover it was funny but not as great as i thought it would be. I just wish I never get in any trouble like that. It could happen. I have been passed a ruffie colada before. It also look like alot of really stupid flicks are coming out. Another Final Destination is on the way and it seems like they are running out of ideas of killing off the cast. Drowning at a carwash because your sun roof opened?! Cant a bitch open a door or roll down a window? I know its a movie but BLEH! I am looking foward to Alice in wonderland though. Johnny Depp looks sooo cool. I didnt see any trailers but I saw some banners. Cant wait!

Toby gave me a shirt to make it look "cool" I havent had any inspiration but it will come to me. Maybe H. Naoto knock off? I dont know yet. But I hope he doesnt want it right away because i just dont feel like working on it now. He is a sweetie though I love him so much. We are supposed to go see an Industrial band with Joey and Helena next month. Hope that goes well, but I always have fun with them so it should be good.

Blah off to do something productive

Buu

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 23:19:07 GMT

Alina left me alone at her house. Maybe she should of taken me home so her mommy wouldnt get mad. Im kind of tired and miss my house. Well not really. I think I am going to clean my room when I get back. Im back from Japan. Did I forget to tell you? I want to go back and live there. I got really comfortable. eh dont feel much like posting. Laters

Rentrer En Soi presents :

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 14:22:18 GMT

So I found out that today was a concert at Shibuya O West. Yes, Rentrer En Soi/Boogieman/Sugar/ネガ/DEATHGAZE/Born/ and Schmelz Cure all preformed. I thought i was going to have trouble finding Shibuya O West. Well the Taxi driver didnt find it. He left me by a Koban so that I could ask where it was. Thanks Taxi Man! It didnt matter I wasnt about to go ask a police officer where this concert was being held. I just followed the other freaks that were walking on the side of the road. Yeah I was right they took me straight to the concert hall. Even though I bought my ticket at the door it was so easy to get up to the front. This concert hall is small just like Marz. There is a upstairs but it was closed off. So as I walk my way to the front I knew I should probably brace myself for the hardcore bitches of Visual Kei. Actually I knew I was going to have fun because when I go to a VK concert at a con I know there arent many that are going to rock out. But I know that here they all know the music and it will probably be intense. Now let me tell you something. If you are going to be in the front row you better prepare to do some major headbanging,para para and basically be ready to move. And Im not talking about just a couple of inches from where you are standing. You really have to move your feet to para para left then para para right. If you dont move in the front row you will probably be run over. I know that Kagerou is broken up and a member of Metronome left. But now Yuana and many others are in a group called Boogieman. I love them so much. I didnt find out that ex members other bands were in Boogieman till last night. I was exited to see Yuana, seeing that I am a Kagerou fan. "Yuana! " Wow This has been the best concert experience I have ever had. I met some bad ass chicas that showed me the para para's before each performance. I will probably go to oni con this year and be dissapointed by the lack of energy in the crowd. I mean dont get me wrong. Its interesting to see a Emo Cloud in the crowd for a VK band and seeing a tohoru dance about... but It wont be fun without all the hardcore jrockers of Japan. I was just so exited to have someone to rock so hard with. The Japanese also know how to respect personal space. Im not sure if its because they respect it or want their own space to headbang and such. I just know they wont push up on you elbow you. There is a good space beetween you and the other person at all times. All the bands were great and it wouldnt be a visual kei concert without a lead singer cutting himself on the chest or spitting water at the audience. First row is fun and amazing until Satsuki spits on your hair. EWW! Tonight was great and worth the 35 dollars I spent on the ticket. Seven bands and only 35 dollars. Not a bad deal my friends.

By the JR Shinjuku Station

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 08:14:56 GMT

So I decide to go in search for Jr shinjuku station today. It actually isnt that far of a walk from the hotel. As you walk further into the city you see more and more interesting fashions. I saw plenty of gothic lolitas and punks at the station today. Oh and if you dont know I have a deep attraction for asian boys with bleach blonde hair. I saw plenty of those today too. The layered look is very popular here. I love layers too but its 80 degrees out. Mostly everyone you see is wearing a dress with pants under then a long sleev shirt under that. Oh and you cant forget your knit beenie. Oh and dont forget your wool scarf. How do you not die in that? Its sad though because i brought close to layer. I still wear it but thats what i brought. Its so hot out but you must look fashionable.You seem to start walking like everyone in tokyo once you get around alot. First thing you have to do is walk fast like you have somewhere very important to be and you cant be late. Im sure that most of these people do have things to attend to but please dont run over me with your bikes as you do so. Everyone seems to know when the pedestrian like will turn green too. You just start walking with the crowd like in NYC. I have yet to take a picture of the vending machines and yet i keep buying everything from them. Todays latest discovery is Pocari sweat. It really does taste like sweat. I reccomend you stay away from that. I thought it was just a mineral water but who knows whats in that perhaps real sweat?

Gaming time
I found some arcades today and I couldnt resist to play crane games. I cant resist when Im back home and they have crappy prizes. But here.. OMG EVERYTHING IS CUTE. I spend 5 dollars trying to get a damn gloomy bear. I could probably go to mori chax shop and buy a bad ass one. But I wanted to win! In the arcade there are about 3 floors. First floor consists of crane games, Taiko drum and thats it. Second level has shooting games, racing games and print club! I didnt go into the second floor because I was stuck trying to take pictures in every photo booth I could. It was boring at first without a buddy but then I just got into it and couldnt stop.

Here are some pics i took while by the station today.

Tokyo dark castle vol. 45. Sat oct 18

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 22:34:50 GMT

I was really sleepy today and I didnt feel very well. Im thinking that plane ride was finally getting to me. I didnt even want to go to Tokyo dark castle. I was thinking on how I was going to get there and if I would find it. Yeah and if you go to that event you wont be going home till sun up. I got dressed though and decided to go. I got there by taxi which cost me 800 yen. Suprisingly i got there early and just waited around outside. I love it here, everyone knows how to dress and they are so nice. Back home if they dress amazing the automaticaly think they are better than you. I go downstairs into the underground club and it is way smaller than i imagined. The dance floor is so small. Marz has two stories. First story has a bar with some lockers and the entrance then down stairs is the dance floor,stage,bathrooms and some beer vending machines. when i first went inside i wasnt sure if I was going to like the music or not but all the dj's played amazing music. I got to dance to hocico,christian death,combichrist and a bunch of others that I thought they would never play. The first band to play was 13th moon. They looked kind of strange but the music was pretty cool. Lots of para para to industrial style music. Auto Mod was second on the list and I already knew I was going to like them. Look them up on myspace if you want to hear their music. All of a sudden the room got packed for the next band and for what!? They were the suckiest band ever. I did appreciate one thing though. They re-made christian deaths " Im burning crosses on niggers lawns" song. When they first strarted to play the song I was like... "Hmmm hey I know this song!" People got really crazy during this band. Im not even sure why they werent that good. They didnt even fit in with the rest of the music. It sounded more punky than anything. I also have a new idol. Seila how I love you. She is one amazing woman. She is beautiful and very dominant just how I like em.During her and Sisens set she had some guy crawl out with a collar around his neck and a leash in her hand. Then you suddenly see a whip and she strikes his back and ass. Then for the ending of the song she sufficates him. Yeah talk about your S&M Queen. Two tribal goth belly dancers all surround her as Seila sings. This woman has a very sexual show and i love it. Last to play was Aural Vampire. She was fun but most of it was her and Mr. Robot talking. Well the robot guy always wears a mask and has Gizmo get on a screen and talk to him. The videos that were behind aural while she sang "dark wave surfer" was so strange. It is a mix of videos that made it seem like they were singing her song. The video included artists like Eminem, Michael Jackson ( used the black and white video) snoop dog and some others that I had no idea who they were. I think I am going to get home and feel like something strange is missing in my life. Anyway everyone gets together on stage and they start giving out prizes to people. As they give out the prize they invite the lucky person on stage. Well it gets to be Sisens turn to hand out his prize then he looks down and makes me climb on the stage. It was badass but kind of embarassing. Then me and sisen spoke spanish to eachother while the crowd looked in confusion then everything was straightened out in japanese. lol I thought it was the funniest thing ever. Oh yeah and my prize was a shirt with Sisens cartoon self on it. woopie.. lol After that I got to dance with Takuya Angel and Sisen on stage. It was fun. Too bad my ears are ringing like crazy. And my eye was all red from my contact lense. Oh yes and it was very easy for me to get to the very front at concerts in Japan. Well in live houses like that anyway. You just dance yourself to the front. I did get some short clips of video but who knows how I send that with this Japanese phone. I dont think they enabled it for texts or emails. Ugh.. I didnt take the camera either for fear i would lose it. My club bag was very small and this camera is not sleek and slim. So I left that camera behind. Im kind of glad I did.. I lost about 1500 yen at the club. The party didnt end till 6:00 am. I went outside and it was freezing good thing I just grabbed a cab back to the hotel. Yeah its very easy to take a cab but kind of expensive they start you off at Almost 8 dollars. Where back in the us its about 5. Atleast I didnt get lost in Kabukicho. Maybe I can get those videos up. Post again soon
On my way to the castle

Sisens gift shirt

Japanese Fanta. YUm

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 04:48:10 GMT

I had my frist japanese vending machine drink. Yum yum for Fanta

In Japan now

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 01:12:00 GMT

Im in Japan now and I will keep u all updated with my lj. My internet didn’t work at first but I didn’t know I had to go through the tv to get it. Im so happy I finally got it to work. I forgot to write addresses down for where I was going. And I need to keep in touch with me peeps. My trip so far has been interestingly tiring. The plane ride was long and the bus trip was long. I had know Idea it would take so long for me to get to the hotel. Along the way I saw some interesting things. It was still a difficult to see out the window of the bus. All the lights are on inside so its hard to see shit. There are interesting store and hotel names and the billboards are confusing. I didn’t imagine to see Jack Nicholson up on a billboard with the word BOSS stripped across his forehead. I mean what is that about? Is it a fragrance? It just looked very strange. I wish I could have taken pictures of all of this but my camera couldn’t get it from inside the bus. I suppose every city has its store chains. We have H.E.B, Fiesta, and Valero. They are filled with Family marts and Stop and Krup? What does krup mean? I don’t know I figured that was just weird. I was starting to get so restless on that bus I thought I would never make it to the hotel. I was even thinking why did I come? Then we passed by Tokyo Tower. It looks so amazing at night. I mean I know it is just a structure but I guess when you see that you know your in Tokyo and you finally made it to where you wanted to go. I hope to go during the week to get some pictures of it. Right now I am avoiding getting dressed it is 8:34 A.M and I am just watching cartoons. I guess I will go get dressed now. I need to have a adventures.

Event Update.

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 08:30:23 GMT

I have been trying to pre schedule my time in Japan. I already knew of some club events but I was having a hard time finding a great concert. It seemed like Visual kei was dry for october. I completely forgot about Indie bands. They never let me down. Im glad Undercode has a date for me.So heres what I got so far.

2008.10.17(Fri) No Charge!! Club Cyber Visual Mode
glow.
KATO&1，2，3
GRADE X
Diz-
Anli Pollicino
ＴЯｉｃＫＹ
SWEET MADONNA
etc

2008.10.19(sun) 池袋地下牢club cyber
dieS
ドロシー
シネマストリップ
etc

2008.10.20 (Mon) CYBER CITY THEATER
Lilas-リラ-
Diz-
AI-倶楽部
etc

2008.10.18(Sat) TOKYO DARKCASTLE Vol.45 - Halloween Special

1.Tokyo Dark Castle Halloween Parade In Kabukichou
Time:22:30

2.Band : Auto- Mod / Aural Vampire/ Dalle/ +13th Moon+/ Seileen
DJ: Chihiro/ Taizo/ Takuya Angel
Time: 12A.M

2008.10.24 Holiday Shinjuku
Megaromania東名阪主催イベント「美醜の館-Cardinal Circle-」
Megaromania / ClearVeil / Lycaon / Like absolute myself / カル・ヴァリ / born / DELUHI
独立国歌-Ashe'- / ギルティア/ Ellseed
Time: 2:30 pm

2008.10.24 Gothic Bar Heaven
Dj Sisen @ Club Hoop
Time: 11:00 pm

OUT

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 22:03:51 GMT

So I hadnt seen Alina because of her dumb phone being all lost. The good thing is she has a phone now and I can bug her whenever I want. I spent the day with her yesterday and it was entertaining as usual. I almost got us in many accidents. It was a blast! I missed her so much ;_;. Im not sure why.. Because she always steels my food. XD Oh I know because I love her!

I spent a day with Clint we ate at Fujia and Smoked hookah. It was pretty fun I hadnt had shisha in a long while. I feel bad that I couldnt go out and say bye. I wasnt feeling too good. Buu oh well. There will be other times.

Friday night was spent on hanging out with some friends at a local bar. We saw a live band and they werent half bad. I am a picky bitch when it comes to music so I was surprised. After that we headed to atomix where I can say that I got tore' up. I got fucked up that night. It was a nice drunk though. Until you get those bad memories of Joseph. Get the fuck out of my head you bitch! lol It was fun none the less. I pushed some bitch out of the way so I could dance on stage and I got free drinks. Thank you for the Vodka sours you losers! No pussy for you. HA HA. I hope to go to Heat next weekend. Or maybe I should chill till my trip. Im not sure what is better. Build my tolerence or lighten up. Either way Im screwed in Tokyo.

So Im planning my trip to Tokyo. Im leaving in a month. So you bitches that want something better be nice to me. XD I found a good round trip price on JBT. Now I just need to schedule my time. Im reading sisens page and Im not sure whether to believe his schedule or Tokyo decadence website. Candy spooky theater plays on the 20th. Something is going on the 17th. Something on the 25 and something on 23. UGH. You bitches better update your calander correctly. I dont want to be at Christons Cafe all alone!

This starbucks is cold. I dont want to type anymore

This shit will fuck you up

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 23:54:47 GMT

So yeah this guys says I have his ipod. Yeah his bag is in my truck but I dont know whats in there. I wasnt about to look through that nasty ass bullshit. First of all if you really cared that much for something then you would be more careful where you left it. I did not leave that bag at Lina's house. It was not my responsibility to pick it up, its not my stuff. As a matter a fact I should be thanked. If it wasnt for me then you probably would have to search every dumpster in san antonio for that bag. She would of thrown it away next day. I am very much pissed off. I do someones hair and they dont even say thank you. They leave me alone in a horrible situation. Then Im expected to be the care taker of your things. I dont think so. I am about to kick some ass. Oh yeah and what was said about me? " She probably pawned it because she is MEXICAN" WTF?!I didnt even know anything of value was in there. I just thought it was a bunch of dirty clothes. But now that something like that was said about me maybe I can make it true. I could use 30 dollars. Is that how much a pawn shop will give me? Yeah I could use that 30 dollars for my Japan trip. Fuck you son of a bitch.

So I havent posted in a while. I owe people pictures and other stuffs.

Top cool things from that past two weeks

Got my first two week paycheck and ready for another. Yeah baby hired on!
Lap dances at Perfect 10 are a perfect 10
Mychonny knows his shit. Check him out in such things as " How to be an asian teeny bopper" and "Asian parents"
Watched Tropic thunder (In no way is this offensive or disrespectful to American vets,retards,or black people) Like I would care
My car is working again

I was watching this and thought it was the funniest thing ever. Hope you enjoy it! (Now that I remember past things)XDD

Lapis Lazuli

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 23:07:48 GMT

Word of The Day
Lapis lazuli (pronounced /ˈlæpɪs ˈlæzjəliː/) (sometimes abbreviated to lapis) is a semi-precious stone prized since antiquity for its intense blue color.

This word was in a ムック　song,one of my favorite from their new album. I didnt know what it meant so went to look it up. I dont remember them playing 輝く世界 (Kagayaku Sekai) Live.Perhaps Alina knows since we have seen them together twice. If I they did play it and I dont remember I will be angry with myself. I love this song too much. Mucc how I wish to see you agian soon.

Lapis Lazuli

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 23:02:42 GMT

kittycow knows since we have seen them together twice. If I they did play it and I dont remember I will be angry with myself. I love this song too much. Mucc how I wish to see you agian soon.

Compulsive Buying

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 22:25:47 GMT

Not really Compulsive buying but I want one... So help me choose. Im buying tonight! So Please Vote Vote Vote!

Sunday Theater

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 02:42:43 GMT

I have been to the movies enough for the month. Going twice in one day can take alot out of you. This afternoon we took my nephew to see Kung Fu Panda. Everytime I see a movie with Jack Black, I can just feel the intellagence seeping out of my brain. I suppose it was a okay kids movie. Later on that night we went with Koichi and Lina and saw Forbidden Kingdom. I did not care for this movie at all. It extremely sucked. Wheel of morality turn turn turn tell us the lesson that we should learn. And the moral of todays movie is " Any fanboy's dream can come true" I dont reccomend Forbidden Kingdom unless you want to watch repetative fight scenes. After 3 minutes it all started to look the same. Not only did the movie suck but we were in the most ghetto theater in town. I hate the dollar theater! In the front row was a guy that kept striking his lighter towards the ground. I mean what was he doing?! Was he getting his crack ready? Then the lady sitting next to us kept talking so loud with her grandchildren. I dont think I will be going there for a long long time.

So someone was telling me how their friend brags about being an internet ho. Is that really something to brag about? I mean anyone can get bitches online. It takes real talent to get actual pussy. All I have to say is, loser get a fucking life. I told you I was fiesty today!

My cell phone ornaments are being attached to my phone daily. It really is growing. If anyone would like to contribute to my katamari, you know where to find me! Here is the list of what I already have.

1. Pink furry coin purse
2. Tamagotchi connection stuffed animal
3. Cute Girrafe lip balm accessory
4. Winnie the Pooh in Elephant kigurumin
5. Winnie the Pooh in Pig Kigurumin
6. Hello kitty whore holding glass of Lemonade
7. Bell Half Moon with Heart pendant
8. Black Panda
9. Burgandy Panda

I would like to add to this collection. Cute things are Aaa-mazing~

Hopefully the work week goes by fast again. But now I am going to rest up a bit... Work at 5 A.M...
Night Night!

Diary of a sleepy bitch

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 04:01:51 GMT

I practically slept my Saturday away. I believe my eyes opened at around 11 a.m but just couldnt get out of bed. It was just so comfy under those sheets. I didnt get up until 6 p.m. How horrible is that? I really wanted to do something today but atleast I got some sleepy and cuddling in. Ha ha. Now I have a pile of movies to watch. Im just waiting.. and I dont know why. Lets get this thing on a roll!

I have been listening to MUCC alot lately. I always loved their harder music but I am growing to love this new CD. I love you MUCC! I have always loved you but now you have impressed me. You got a girl like me to love this new C.D. Someone said that their sound turned emo. No I dont think so. They are not as hard as they were but they are not emo. They still have that blues sound and lots of bass. Your not Emo your amazing.

Not much to post today. Well I didnt do anything.
My life needs to get interesting. Maybe after the big trip.

Update

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 03:49:41 GMT

I have been a bit sad since my last post. I have not tried to shut anyone out in fact I wanted the opposite. Lately I just get home,fall asleep and wont wake up till very late. I wanted to apologize to Alina and her mother. I didnt mean avoid you. Actually I got home that day to eat really quick but I sat down for a bit and just fell asleep. I didnt wake up till really late that night. After that I just felt bad and was too scared to call and apologize. I suppose letting people down scares me. So I am really sorry to the both of you. Maybe I can make it up to you somehow.

I was pretty lost this week. I went into work today thinking it was Thursday. In my head I was thinking " Just two more days of work" Then I looked at the calender in my phone to get the date. And what a surprise it was Friday! My mood was so much better after that. Too bad I forgot the 4 dollars for Rita's B-Day bash. Its okay Francis covered it but I have to remember to pay her back Monday. I still dont know the damn pin for my debit card. So dont ask me for cash.

One night I got really bored and had a conversation with that Salmon thing. I think I will speak to it more just because it is so entertaining. Anyway this is how the conversation went.

Shizuka Dai: No
FriendlessSalmon: salmonfiesta!
Shizuka Dai: I love fiestas!
FriendlessSalmon: They're perfectly wonderful.
Shizuka Dai: Im kinda mexican you know
FriendlessSalmon: I did not know that. Are there many Mexican salmon?
Shizuka Dai: I am not sure. But I am one of them.
FriendlessSalmon: I see.
Shizuka Dai: Have a happy day salmon san
FriendlessSalmon: you as well, Mexisalmon!

How odd was that?

Hopefully I have something interesting to post for the weekend... I doubt it. I think I am going to cool it with the gays and the clubs on Saturday. I will miss them.. u.u

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 02:28:49 GMT

I havent been doing too well these past couple of days but Im still here. Thanks to two friends I am a little encouraged. Alina and Yomi your great for being there when I need a friend. I found Gloomy bear last night but I still had trouble sleeping. I just need to get back into my gloomy sleepy happy time. Whatever that means. It makes sense to me.

PAST WEEK UPDATES. (Not feeling well to type.
I saw that move Meet Dave with Eddie Murphy. It was kind of strange. It made me feel weird. I guess im not an Eddie Murphy fan... The Faggle in the movie was amazing though. Wait isnt it supposed to be a kid movie?

I thought my Zen was going to have a melt down. Turns out it just ran out of battery.Duh I thought it had energy for life.

Hopefully my week will improve. No, it will get better.

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 03:47:23 GMT

Just as I was about to fall asleep my alarm clock rang for me to get up for work. It actually went off later then it was supposed to. Way later! I got up at 5:58 and I am supposed to be at work by 6. This is all my fault for loosing my damn bear. I cleaned the room and looked everywhere for him but I cant find Gloomy. I really cant sleep without him. Buu~

My knee is still fucked up. I should go get it checked but do I really want to add more Bullshit to the list? Even though it hurts I keep dancing and working on it. And its so swollen.. Maybe I can get it checked out next week.

The weekend is coming up and I am so exited. I would of liked to go visit Helena and go to Underworld but I cant. It will be a night in San Antonio again. We can still make it fun with the right liquids. Im kiddin! See you people at Atomix.

Aim doesnt like me this week. Im having sign in problems so you guys that only have aim get on skype or yim if you want to talk. I think I might have to make a new ID for Aim.

Still lonely and without sleep. Hurry up and get hear weekend.

Zen

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 03:20:59 GMT

I love my ZEN! I just bought myself a mp3 player and its absolutely amazing. Work goes by three times faster and I have lots of music to play in my blue monster. Best buy I have made in a long time.

Life has been the same except for that fact that I really love going out now. I think I have to take care of my nephew this Saturday so that leaves Friday open. Me, Bill, Kiwi, and Stephen are going to party it up at Atomix. So anyone that wants to join is welcome. Im getting the absolut Pear and getting my mix on. Anthony has been a great inspiration. No drinks will compare to his. Oh yeah if didnt mention Anthony he is Mine and Alinas gay bartender. Yes he's ours! I even got a myspace message by one of my hair dresser friends at Visible changes. " I saw you at The Heat Saturday night. I was too fucked up and by the time I got to see you we were leaving the door. I would have so danced with you" I will be going there more often. I wish the guys were up to going to the gay club. Oh well... we shall have a great time this weekend anyway. Without the gays.

I lost gloomybear and I cant sleep. Yeah I thought it was a bunch of crap that I had to sleep with him. But yes it makes a difference. I really cant sleep without that damn stuffed peice of shit! Gloomy! Come back to me! Hopefully he turns up I really need a good nights rest.

I have been lonely lately. Buu this is bullshit, I hate feeling this way. I guess thats why I am turning into a club monster. I need people to be around or to talk to atleast.

Meh Im tired.. Im going to try and sleep now. Night night Bitches

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 01:27:14 GMT

You have to know that you are a good person when you help those that have fucked you over horribly. And you dont only help because you think you have to but because you want to and care. I never thought I was a bad person but sometimes you wonder or doubt yourself just based on how your treated. But I know what I am and I should never doubt myself again.

My weekend was pretty fun but I have been really tired all week. I slept for hours and hours and Im still so tired. I dont know whats wrong with me. I also have to go get my knee checked out I dont know what I did to it. I hope its nothing really bad. Too tired to keep typing but I will give an update later I only have 4 day week anyway.

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 02:42:42 GMT

Today was another boring day. I woke up late for work around 5:45. Well I originally woke up at 5:00 but looked down and said just 10 more minutes... I did that but I didnt wake up till 5:45! Then I10 was had traffic because of construction. Ugh I was about 10 minutes late to work. Again it was boring and now Im tired of gasket sets. Now I get to work and cant wait to go home and nap. My nap today was ruined.. Have you ever went to sleep in the middle of the day and woke up not knowing what day it was or where you are supposed to be. Well I have! Im not used to just going to bed at 2:00pm so when you sleep and wake up 4 hours later you think that its some other day. So I woke up confused and cried a little. I thought I had missed work... Ever since I came back from the trip I have been feeling weird. I cant explain it. I just cant sleep or I feel like something is there. I dont know its strange! I never felt this way before. Meh tomorrow will be a better day.

I actually have things to do this weekend.

Helena will be here Friday so I might help them move and Atomix possibly.
My friend will have her cosmo graduation and graduation party
Sunday I get to chill. I only have a 4 day work schedule next week. woot!

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 01:04:02 GMT

Run down of the day. I woke up at 5.00 A.M my daily routine and got dressed for work. Im usually sleepy at work but today was the worst. I dont understand why either I went to bed earlier than usual. It was pretty busy at work too everyone needed something to get their pistons done. And I will tell you now. I hate doing Valve train 68.0's now. If you dont know what that is.. well neither do I. I just know I put it together. I was just so sleepy.. I dont think I have ever almost fallen asleep standing up. Except for when I was in school and I would kind of do that in the shower before I went.

Work was pretty much over by 2:30 and I decided to go to Target. It was a good thing I did because I found a new bed sheet set on sale. This gave me motivation to clean that nasty room! Its all clean now and smells like apple spice or some shit like that. I love you febreeze for masking all the evil odors.

I got back and took a nap and just woke up not too long ago. That was pretty much my day. How interesting was that? Its no wonder nobody reads my LJ. Not to mention that nobody I know uses it. Bastards!

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 21:41:15 GMT

Im a little more calm today now that I am in my enviorment away from all the bullshit. Still pissed but nowhere near what I was. I could of just all unleashed it that day but no I hold it in.. It sucks. I wish I was able to show when Im angry. Im tired,my neck hurts and im pissed. This calls for a nap. Im not enjoying typing lately so meh

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 01:29:33 GMT

I might not know very much today but I do know that I cant believe the kind of people I would let into my life. I believe that that I am a person who is caring and true. I seemed to only attract those who just want to hurt me. Why can people be so cruel? I learned that sometimes following your feelings is not the way to go. There are so many liars and ass holes that you just dont know who to trust in anymore. You just know that those who have always been with you and willingly wanted to help are the ones that trully care about you. I dont think I have ever felt hate for anybody but I have lately. It is sad to say how much a person affects you. I will explain more about this when I feel better.

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